Anyone Scared of Having Babies Out There?

Photo by Manuel Schinner on Unsplash

 

I am in my 30’s and I just hit another birthday and it made me think of my biological clock. Oh, that darn biological clock where I can’t just kick it to the curb.

 

No matter how young I feel or look at times (thank you to various filters), I can’t ignore the fact that my biological clock is ticking.

 

I am at a point where most of my friends who are my age have a kid or two. Not even a baby but a freaken toddler.

 

When I hang out with my mom friends, I smile and nod and ask questions that might help me in the future (even though I will probably forget most of them).

 

I’ve always liked toddlers because they are cute and they are not mine, so they are fun to play with. I’ve rarely thought about having my own kids in the past and even now it is on and off thing. I am sort of waiting for that ‘moment’ when my maternal instinct will kick in and kick my uterus yelling I WANT A BABY HERE!!

 

Those feelings come and goes and they occur more often than before so perhaps that might be seen as a sign. The word might. I am still not totally convinced yet that I still want a baby.

 

My mom friends tell me that I might never be ‘ready’ but that my maternal instinct will kick in once I have a baby. But what if I don’t?

 

Another reason why I am scared of having a baby is that I don’t feel stable in my career. I mean I now have a full-time job and I like it but the pay is not great. So I am thinking of going back to school to do some upgrading on my education; however, that takes time and money.

 

There are also other things I want to pursue such as writing more (I am failing miserably in even producing two posts in a month) and making videos (nonexistent).

 

Because I am not pursuing these things, I feel like the baby plan has to wait until I figure out my life where it took an unexpected path where there are only unknowns, questionable, and doubts. I mean I guess that is part of life and that is the reason why I am even writing this post.

 

These posts are kind of like online journals where I pour my feelings out and hopefully, I will find some clarity while writing them. It is not clarifying at the moment!!

 

I will continue to live on and imagine one day what will it be like having a baby until it’s too late. Yikes!!

 

I don’t even know how to end this post.

Lost

In

Baby

Thoughts.

 

Do you have any advice or tips on what to do with all these ruminating thoughts?

 

Seriously.

 

Thanks for reading up until this point.

 

Until next time,

 

 

Minimalist Min(ie)

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Dear Eyeliner Fanatics,

 

 

I am calling out for all eyeliner fanatics because I’ve done something I’ve never done before. First of all, this is beauty related post so it won’t be something grande like climbing Mountain Everest hence the title.

I’ve always worn eyeliners my whole life since the age of 16 and yeah… it’s been a couple of decades since then but I wanted to stress how big this was for me.

Not a huge difference but mind you back in the days I put on more eyeliner when I was younger. As the years passed by, my eyeliner game became softer and lighter.

I am reflecting on it and I realize this process did not occur in one night. In the past, I slowly dabbled with no eyeliner when I went out to do errands such as going to grocery stores nearby or going to a dentist etc. Soon I went to the gym in the morning barefaced and I don’t know about you but going to a certain type of gym and going at either am or pm makes a difference (is anybody on this with me?) Nowadays, I sometimes go barefaced going to the gym at any time! My skin can breathe while sweatin Y’all!

Anyways this time, I did not put any eyeliner when I went to work for a whole week!!

 

 

(Left: Eyeliner on / Right: Eyeliner off)

Work was someplace I always had my eyeliner on. No matter the circumstances, I always drew them. Even though I was late, I always managed to wear makeup in the washroom and people would stare but I didn’t give an F. I needed my eyeliner…and everything else.

 

When I adopted the no eyeliner look, I felt so barefaced in the beginning, but when I got used to it, I actually felt free! Mind you, I did wear eyeshadows but that is not the point here!!

 

 

I felt like I was free from eyeliner cuffs. I always thought I had to have eyeliner to look “awake” but then again I can look awake by just opening up my eyes wider and maybe a cup of coffee!!!

 

I also felt more confident in telling myself I don’t need eyeliner as part of my look but something that enhances the look.

 

Plus having no eyeliner created a different type of look that I did not have before.

 

I now remind myself I have the option to wear eyeliner or not and if I am really crunched on time I don’t have to be hesitant about going out without my eyeliners.

 

This post might not be much of a deal to some of you but eyeliners were part of my face for 20 years so, yeah, this is a big deal for me.

 

I challenge all the eyeliner fanatics to go out one day or even longer without eyeliners and let me know how that made you feel!

 

Anyways thanks for reading!

 

 

Until then

Minimalist Min(nie)

Reviews on the Happiness Planner and Make Things Happen planner

I was stoked during December 2017 to purchase these planners as I was full of hopes and dreams of wanting to achieve everything that I wanted. I had whole lists of to do’s and I thought this was it. 2018 was the year achievements and accomplishments were going to be met. There were so much hopes and buzz around this idea that I decided to purchase two different planners to help motivate myself.

 

I searched around and found a YouTuber that I frequently watched and she mentioned a planner called The Peony Planner; however, the price was quite high. I was trying hard to justify for purchasing it but at the end, I didn’t buy it. I also wanted to purchase using free shipping, but to get free shipping I had to purchase over 100 dollars USD. I even scoured the merchandise section and I even tried to coax my sister to get something with me, but she didn’t budge. I refused to pay for shipping so at the end I didn’t purchase it. (I made the right choice). I was given a gift card to a bookstore during the holidays, so I decided to utilize that and purchased a cheaper version of the planner called The Happiness Planner that was sold on the site. It was also on sale so, at the end with the gift card, it came up to 35 dollars CAD.

 

For Make Things Happen Planner, I have been reading a site called Career Girl Daily blogs receiving personal, career, fashion and makeup tips and got quite good information out of them so when they were heavily promoting their merchandise I got suckered in and purchased one of their planners.  I was close to getting the Getting Things Done planner but because I was getting the Happiness planner and I was planning to use that as my main one, I decided to not to. Their website had discount codes but it still came up to 60 dollars CAD (it was a stupid decision).

 

Nevertheless, here are my thoughts on both of these planners.

 

I am not going into dimensions and what the box entails so for more specs of each planner, check out their websites for detailed information.

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My thoughts on Happiness Planner

  1. First, it came in a box comprised of various knick-knacks such as a pen (it looks fancy with its rose color finish, but the ink is shit) bunch of happiness sheets, clips, and stickers. They became useless because I didn’t use them. However, if I don’t I can probably reuse them for next year by making photocopies.
  2. It comes with an inspiring quote on every page which I have been ignoring due to forgetting to write on that day but that is my own fault.
  3. It has numerous sections of places to write on gratitude, scheduling, what to focus, to-dos and so forth, and I appreciate that.
  4. It is big and heavy (hardcover) to lug around, so I treat it as a journal where I put it near my bedside table and try to write at the end my day. The key word: try Update: I am planning to use it as my daily planner even though it is quite heavy.
  5. I like my planner to be structured as weekly because it is easier to plan my week that way. This planner is daily so when I open the planner I only see two days which disrupts the flow of scheduling.

 

Final thoughts: It is a good concept as it makes the users reflect each day and to write in different categories such as schedule list, to do’s and what I am grateful for etc. I think it was a good buy for this time, because I had the gift card and it was on sale. I will use these different categories for my future journaling, but I will not purchase this specific Happy Planner again. They come in different styles so if they come up with weekly style and a smaller planner size, I might reconsider.

 

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Thoughts on Make Things Happen planner

 

  1. I felt like the website really tried hard to promote their products, and I think I was swept in the bubble and the hype thinking that I would be able to do all my goals and that by buying this planner will help me. Uhhhhhhh…. Nope. I want to tell the readers to really, really think it through before buying this planner.
  2. For what it’s worth I think this was one item where I wasted my money for the year of 2017. No joke.
  3. Again the concept seems great. Every month there are career and personal development goals that go along each month. I mean they are great, and I fall for these kinds of stuff every freaking time, but I feel like I can find these types of goal setting plans ONLINE!!!!!!!! And for FREE!!!!!
  4. Too much grammar and spelling mistakes.
  5. Now that I’ve gone through 4 months, their plans are so generic and full of cliches.

 

I think that’s why I am so upset because the stuff on their planner is the stuff they usually write on their website for free!!!

 

Final thoughts: Not worth it!!! Unless they are on massive sale like 50+% off and if you are a paper and a pen type of person this might do it but….seriously nope. This planner is a monthly planner and the cover and the book looks quite cheap TBH. I mean I paid c$60 even though it included shipping. This planner was also back ordered so I received it in mid-January. By that time, their merchandise went on sale…… And they refused to give me price match which sort of stung me even further.

 

This experience turned me off so much that I almost stopped reading their content online, but I will continue reading as long as they are free. I know they have a planner called Ultimate Blogging planner so have anyone of you have any reviews on that? I would love to know!

 

Anyways here were my reviews/thoughts on these two planners I purchased for the year of 2018. Did any of you purchase an awesome planner? If so please let me know about them!

 

Thank you for reading!

 

Until then

 

 

Minimalist Min(ie)

 

 

Should I Sue or Not?

I am pondering whether I should continue with a lawsuit.

 

On August 27th, 2017 my partner was about to walk our dog Kyuuko who is a corgi pom whom just left the house and I was at the garage at that time and suddenly I heard my partner yell “Nooooo, nooooo!” I ran outside and saw my partner holding our dog and saw the neighbours’ brother holding his dog who was a female Pitbull.

 

The pit bull bit our dog Kyuuko’s leg and he was bleeding. The neighbours (they are a couple and he was the wife’s brother) brother apologized profusely and said he will call his sister whom was the actual neighbour and said he will take care of them. We were bewildered and shaken so we took the contact information and took Kyuuko to the emergency vet.

 

Kyuuko went into surgery and after few hours he was alright. The vet said it was pretty bad but not life-threatening. The bill came up to 1000 dollars.

 

The next day the owner, the wife, called and apologized and said she will take care of the costs and to call her back after it was finalized.

 

We contacted our pet insurance and they covered 60% of it. There was still 40% to cover so my partner told the neighbours they owe us 400 dollars. After a month, there was nothing and another month passed. We asked for the money and the husband finally came and paid 300 and said they will pay the rest later. A couple of weeks passed and nothing. We texted the wife for the money and nothing. We messaged again and now we were in December. The wife finally messaged back and told us they were in financial hardships and how we being unfair, childish and immature that we were being inconsiderate of their situation. She said the whole thing was an accident and we should be thankful that they even paid 300 because they wouldn’t have paid at all. She said they were not going to pay us and that’s that.

 

We were understandably furious and didn’t know what to do. We are not the aggressive types so my partner said to Fuck them and to just let it go. I just couldn’t do that because whenever I saw them I wanted to yell and scream at them but I didn’t. I also chose to ignore them but it didn’t last long.

 

At this point, I want to sue them but the amount is quite low. It’s less than 100 dollars and the legal fees might cost more.

 

I am thinking of going through this process called civil resolution tribunal which helps solve cases that are under 3000 dollars.

 

I was going to consult with a lawyer for 30 mins which is included in my work benefits so I was going to utilize that.

 

However, I am still unsure what to do or how to be when I see the neighbours.

 

Does anyone have any advice, tips or thoughts or had similar experiences in the past?

 

Anyways thank you for hearing my story and take care. I did not want to post pictures of Kyuuko when he was hurt because that makes me upset whenever I see them but I will post him resting after the surgery. 

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Thanks for reading,

 

Until then

 

 

Minimalist Min(nie)

 

Instagram: Iamminimalistmin

10 Reasons to Getting Ipsy Makeup Bags

When I first heard of these makeup subscription services, I was so excited. For only 15 CAD and 10 USD per month, I get to try a whole variety of makeup and tools that are from big brands? This was too good to be true!

 

At that time, I was really into YouTube make up guru Michelle Phan and I was digging her, so I decided to subscribe to her monthly makeup Ipsy bags.

 

First, you go to the website www.ipsy.com and answer questions on your physical descriptions and choose what kinds of makeup you want to receive. Afterward, you pay and if there is no waitlist, you are in and you will receive your monthly makeup bags!

 

I subscribed for a year and have stopped since then and here are my thoughts on the Ipsy subscriptions specifically.

 

Get it:

 

  1. If you don’t mind getting makeup from random brands.
  2. if you are just starting out collecting makeup
  3. if you like trying new makeup
  4. if you don’t mind receiving nail polish after nail polish and having makeup tools one month after another
  5. if you don’t mind receiving whatever colors you might get whether they are dark brown eyeshadows this month, lighter brown eyeshadows next month and medium brown eyeshadows the month after that
  6. if you like receiving new makeup bags every month
  7. if you like the feeling of opening up a present every month
  8. if you have extra 15 cad dollars a month and you want to consume for the heck of it
  9. If you want to support Michelle Phan
  10. If you like popping bubble wraps every month

 

Overall, it was fun subscribing for a year trying out new makeup and tools but I realized I was collecting make up for the sake of it. I couldn’t possibly use all the make up I was receiving and I am not the type just to review and to throw them away or to give them away. I did give away makeup to friends here and there but overall, I felt like it was a waste of money but of the products as well.  

 

One reason that propelled me to write this post was that I recently finished using a lip product from the previous Ipsy bags I received which was around 5 years ago!! I used that lip product quite often but it still took me that long to use it up.

 

This is one of the reasons why I stopped buying makeup products because I didn’t need all of that. I already have a lot and I actually want to use them up and not just for the sake of buying them after seeing a great review or a haul from YouTube or blog posts. The feeling of using up makeup products or anything for that matter is a very satisfying feeling. Is anybody else with me on this?

 

I might go back to subscribing makeup subscriptions in the future but only if I use up my current make up stash which would be in 2028. It does take a while to use them up IMHO

 

Have anyone of you tried subscribing to other makeup box or bags and if so what were your thoughts? Please share and comment down below!

 

Thanks for reading!

 

Until next time,

 

 

Minimalist Min(ie)

 

Instagram: iamminimalistmin

Monthly Makeup: Lip Review / Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick

I will be doing a monthly review of makeup related products and this is the lip product I wore almost every day in December 2017 and here is my take on it.

 

Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid lipstick

Item Description:

THE liquid lipstick that started the craze! Unleash long lasting, high-pigment color with a swipe of the wand. In 43 to-die-for shades, this creamy, comfortable formula glides over lips like a gloss and sets to a true matte finish.

Source: Katvondbeauty website

Suggested Usage:

-Outline lip with applicator tip.

-Fill in lip with high-pigment color.

-Artistry tip: fill in lip with angled part of applicator.

-Keep lips still for a few seconds, then apply a second coat for unstoppable wear.

Source: Sephora website

Ingredients

Isododecane, Caprylic/Capric Triglyceride, Disteardimonium Hectorite, Hydrogenated Styrene/Isoprene Copolymer, Polyethylene, Helianthus Annuus (Sunflower) Seed Wax, Propylene Carbonate, Tocopheryl Acetate, Synthetic Fluorphlogopite, Pentaerythrityl Tetra-Di-T-Butyl Hydroxyhydrocinnamate, Dicalcium Phosphate.

Source: Paula’s Choice 

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[Above] How it looks when I first put it on. It actually looks more creamy but the picture is not doing justice 😦

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[Above] After 10+ hours including eating and drinking

 

Pros/Cons:

  • Packaging: It’s a typical slender looking lip product. I am the type who doesn’t care too much about the packaging and I would rather pay less money for less fancy packaging than pay more for the fancy look. The product’s cover was tight when closed, and nothing leaked so that’s good on my end. It does look stylish with the ink motif design on the cover, but yeah other than nothing much.
  • Color: It comes in 43 colors total, so that is pretty awesome! The colors range from pink to black so they are quite diverse and would suit a lot of people’s needs! The color I got was called Double Dare and I purchased it after seeing one of my favorite make up artist Pony put it on her, and it looked so gorgeous!! I mean herself is gorgeous but the color reminded me of dried up rose petals. The color looks especially stunning as the time goes on which is even more awesome. The color is quite pigmented and might look outdated(?) because it looked bold on my lips but in an aging look way. However, as I wore it throughout the day, the color became more muted and looked really pretty at the end of the day. For more muted(?) look, I would wipe off the excess so it doesn’t look as shiny and creamy (if that’s not your thing).
  • Texture: It is quite creamy when I put it on my lips; however, the color comes off quite easily when I accidentally touch my lips with my fingers or eat or drink.  As the time goes by, the texture becomes matte but if I wiped my lips for any reason, the color would come off, so I thought that was quite odd and interesting.
  • Scent: Like a chemical?
  • Performance: The color is pigmented, and quite long-lasting and for most times, it does stay well even though I’ve eaten or drank throughout the day. Like I mentioned before, the color does come off or it would leave a ring on your cup, but somehow, the pigmentation seemed to infiltrate my lips that the color stayed on the whole day. The product is not hydrating, so I had to put on my lip balm few times a day.
  • Availability: Easy access as it is available online and offline from various beauty online stores.
  • Price: 24 CAD at Sephora stores so it’s not drugstore price but it’s not sooo steep that it did not turn me off from purchasing it.

Overall thoughts

When I first tried it on my lips, I didn’t like the color because I thought it was too shiny and aged my look and I left it alone for a while. When I tried it the second time, it was the same effect, shiny and outdated but I persisted having it on the whole day and that was when I noticed the color tone looked prettier and muted as the day went by. Also, the color is very pigmented, so it stayed on the whole day as you can see from my pictures. I didn’t even re-apply any lip colored product other than lip balm to hydrate my lips so that was good because I did not have to worry about my lip color fading.

Overall, I do like the product, but I will wear it when I need my lip color to stay for the whole day. The color is quite bold so I wouldn’t wear it if I am going for a natural look. Unless I have nothing else on other than my lips, then I might consider wearing it to lessen my whole face looking tired and listless. Because of the price, I wouldn’t rush out to get all the colors, but because I only have to apply it once a day, I wouldn’t mind exploring other colors if need be. I am not the type to test out new things, but to observe from far away, and then pounce and to see for myself.

 

Please share your thoughts if you tried any other Kat Von D Everlasting lip product!

 

Thanks for reading!

Until then,

 

 

Minimalist Min(ie)

Reflections and Goals (17/18)

Happy New Years!

It’s a new year! Fresh start! I want this year to be filled with attainable goals and actually, do them. I want to share what I am reflecting on for 2017 and what I want to be doing for 2018. I am putting myself out there so I will be more accountable for my goals. Also remembering and reflecting what I wrote and thought during these times will help me to keep me on the path this year. Mind you though, these areas are not the ONLY things I am working on but ones I want to focus on shall I say.

CAREER (Work, Volunteering, Education)

I’ve managed to work two jobs (one full time, and one part-time) for a full year in 2017 and I don’t know if it was a smart or a foolish thing to do but I am glad it is coming to an end. It’s bittersweet as well because I have been with the organization for 4 years, but I am ready to take on a new challenge for 2018 by working on my personal projects and to look for other on-call jobs. 

I volunteered for 2017 and it was a great way to meet new people, to learn new skills, and to try something different, but in 2018, I might consider looking for something different within the same organization.

In 2017, I’ve been thinking of pursuing additional education but I was feeling really lost and stuck. Now in 2018, I am thinking of doing more schooling to boost up my career and I am hoping it will work out but I haven’t decided on anything specific yet. Because I am uncertain which paths I should take, I am in the process of meeting professionals who work in the industry through my network to get more information.

CHALLENGES (#myfirsts)

In 2017, I participated Tough Mudder Half and it was something I should have given myself more credit so yeah!! I participated in it!! If you are curious how I did and if you are interested in participating yourself, I wrote a post on what to expect and what to bring to help you to have a smoother run.

In 2018, I would like to search for another training or an activity that I haven’t tried it, yet, so that is my goal for this year. Try something new and different!

FITNESS

In 2017, to help myself and my sister train for the Tough Mudder Half,  we followed the workouts that were recommended by the website. We tried working out any days that were available and because of this, all the time that was available went to the gym. Even though it was great for my fitness, other areas flustered.

In 2018, I decided to workout 4 days a week and avoiding not working out for more than 2 days and to eat healthier to replace not working out more than that.

FOOD

I don’t usually snack but if it’s in front of me, my hands will dip into the bags of chips like no other. I have a couple of favorite candies and sweets that I will go for, and for 2017, I tried really hard not to consume them and I stopped buying them for the most part. Out of sight out of mind. I still can’t say no to some sour candies 😉

For 2018, I’ve decided to consume less meat and dairy, especially, milk to start. It’s been a couple of months so far, even though I have had cravings and urges to consume them, I reminded myself of the reasons why I did it in the first place. I am currently having some health issues, so I am seeing if this diet will make a difference. Again, I am not eliminating 100% because I don’t want to be too hard and to put pressure on myself, but I believe reducing is still better than nothing, so this is what I will stick to it for now.

PROJECTS (BLOG, YOUTUBE)

In 2017,  I blogged at least once a month on average. There were some months I didn’t blog at all, and some months, I posted more than once, so on average, it’s been once a month. For 2018, I want to up the goal by posting twice a month. I know this can be seen as a sub-par goal compared to many of you, but I am focused on having smaller and attainable goals.

In 2017, for YouTube, I’ve partnered up with a co-worker, Alina, to make YouTube videos on fashion, makeup, and other random ideas; however, they flustered, because of our conflicting schedules. But for 2018, our schedules have cleared up (we both don’t have permanent weekend work anymore) we can then focus more on creating videos.

SKILLS

In 2017, I picked up a guitar and coding last year and started practicing, but after a couple of months, my practice time started to dwindle. In 2018, I want to make my practices more of a regular thing and I will practice them once a week and if I can accomplish that, I will increase the frequency.

PLANNER

I’ve always used a planner to put in appointments and important notes but in  2018, I will look at the planner and assess it every week. I will be more meticulous about recording especially with my spending, and my eating, although I find meal planning is a bit tough.

Anyways, I’ve purchased two planners, “The Happiness Planner” and “Making it Happen” ( I am gettin real serious here) but I still haven’t received them. When I do, and if I like it, I will make a review. Please leave a comment down below if you are interested. I will also be more meticulous about writing my spending.

WELLNESS TOOLS (Meditation, Journaling, and something FUN)

In 2017, I’ve started to meditate using this free app. and I have been doing it almost everyday. It’s free and there are a lot of different types such as guided or music, so I highly recommend. In 2018, I will continue using this app and to continue to meditate in the morning and at night. I recommend to people who have a hard time sleeping and if you like to hear something soothing or white noise to drift you off to sleep, this app will work wonders.  Well, it works for me.

I journaled once a month on average (I am being completely honest here!!) but in 2018, I will journal at least once a week.

For fun, I want to continue to travel and to look for fun and exciting activities to do this year! I went to a play with my family last year and that was super fun. Trying and enjoying new experiences are one of my top goals this year so I will continue to look for it. TO LIVE WITH INTENTIONS!!!!

 

So these are my big but humble goals for this year so far. Things may change and I will be ready to be flexible to those changes but at least something is there.

 

Also, there is so many self-help and wellness tools and tips out there in the blogosphere, I am going to try them and to write my experiences down for review. If interested, please leave a comment down below.

 

I haven’t done a make up post in a while so I will be coming up with a review of a lip product which I used it everyday for a whole month in December 2017.

 

Please let me know what you intend to do or what your goals for the year 2018?

 

Hope everyone had a great holiday and happy new year again!

 

Thanks for reading!

 

Until then,

 

Minimalist Min(ie)

 

Credit: Photo by Matthew Sleeper on Unsplash